SO. I have been debating whether or not I would put a progress picture on my Instagram account for the past two weeks. Why? I am not entirely sure.
Maybe part of it has to do with the fact that I’m not sure I want a picture of me on the interwebs in a bikini. But then I think about it, and when I compete in my first bikini competition, there is going to be a professional photographer there on behalf of the NPC. And he/she will be taking pictures. And the pictures that he/she takes WILL be on the interwebs. And you will be able to see my booty. In all of its spray tanned glory.
But you know what? I have been working REALLY HARD. As of this post, I will have been training for 6 weeks and 5 days. I hit the gym 6 mornings a week and am there for about 1 hour and 45 minutes to 2 hours. I have been on point with my nutrition plan. I have been taking Giggles to all of her regularly scheduled activities, I have been keeping up with my chores. It hasn’t been easy, and I have recently added a few more things to my plate (additional activities for Giggles, stepping up with my Mom’s Group, and getting back in to religion), and I fully plan on keeping up with all of that too. I’m proud of myself for sticking with this and not giving up.
Sometimes I worry that all I have coming up in the next three-ish months is going to be just a little bit too much. But then I try to think about it in a different way: this life is worth living to the fullest! It’s OK to be really busy and involved in stuff. I think I spent so much of my early life missing out on stuff that I’m kind of overcompensating now – HA! And I am lucky to have an amazing support system around me to lift me up if I get a little overwhelmed. That support system gently reminds me that it’s also OK for me to take a break, step back, and ask for some help with things if needed.
And you know what else? There are people out there who may be following me who might be having a bad day. They might be discouraged. They may need to see something or read something and know, “HEY! If that chick can do it, then you’re damn skippy that I can too!” And to you I say, “Go for it. There’s nothing stopping you but YOU.” (Just another thing that has been confirmed throughout this whole process: you are your biggest competition.)
What the picture below shows is a physical transformation: how my nutrition plan and my workouts have changed my body thus far. What the picture below does not show is the incredible growth in my mind. 7 weeks ago, I would not have sat here and typed out, “I can always ask for help if I get overwhelmed and need it,” because I didn’t want to believe that I needed help with anything. I’m going with the flow a little more. I’m cutting myself some slack more regularly too.
So here you go interwebs … my progress for 6 weeks and a smidge of hard work in training both the body and the mind.